This lifetime I was given a female light skinned body and would make the most out of being human. There are only two choices of physical bodies given on earth, one male and the other female. The female is the one designed to carry offspring bodies. My earth biological parents had six children together and then my mother remarried and had another female giving her three sons and four daughters. I had four daughters and no sons in this lifetime. My children grew with the traditional cultural teachings which I had received which were similar to their father’s. I lived the female role as a wife and working mother in America. However, I never hid the fact that I was different from most people on earth and I planned to live my life searching for others that had similar beliefs and feelings.

As I grew older I learned about time and life’s responsibilities on earth. I learned about time tasking. I learned to attend to basic survival skills. I learned that life on earth was spent watching time schedules. Life on earth was considered good by some and time was utilized efficiently. Some people on earth had chosen to be bad seemed to have no choices given as birthrights. Some were born lacking efficient bodies. I could not explain reasons why beings were born in various ways and locations on earth. Human beings coming to earth were given various skin pigmentation, family locations, and birth places. Darker pigmentation was needed to resist the suns rays in various parts of the world. I learned that many cultures on earth had learned of church religions and others had none.

I learned that being different caused fear. Hope was a form of control as well as fear. There were now other forms of separation among human beings. I could feel everyone and wondered if everyone on earth could feel me. I was a part of the whole and yet we were told that some differences on earth were not good. This I could not understand since we were all born on earth. Why did a variation of pigmentation and cultural beliefs make us separate? I thought we were suppose to all be human beings and be a part of an energy that was given to us before obtaining physical bodies. I knew that there were others who thought like me and did not have to attend a formal gathering to declare one’s beliefs.

As I learned about life and became an adult and my children went their own ways, I was physically allowed to live life alone for the first time. All my family connections to others were available to me but each person was an individual with their own thoughts, desires, choices, and decisions to be made about how they would spend their time one earth. This makes us individual intelligent beings. I realized that some had advantages based on advantages and privileges. Some were given rights at birth simply based on what material wealth their earth parents had obtained or the place they were born, the color of skin that they received at birth, and the cultural belief system. Variations and separations for one human being from others on this planet. We were all the same being born on earth as human beings but there were ways we experienced being different. Was this part of our educational process? We were to return to another lifetime and energy obtaining our knowledge and awareness? I learned that some religions one earth believed in an afterlife.

Since, I was always different and never seemed to fit in to any one place in my own mind’s eye, I decided to let my spirit guide my soul. I was on the inside and would not dwell on what others saw as the outside of me and others. This made my life and time on earth so much easier to bear. I had learned that I was empathic and was usually sympathetic to most human being’s trials and tribulations on earth. I learned that many people experienced life through time and experiences through their senses. Some experienced certain situations that may or may not be their fault. Natural catastrophes were incidents in life that would befall many beings at one time or another. Some people would have money and fame on earth and would be well liked while others would suffer famine, hunger, and rejection. Troubles that made them poor in physical body on the outside as well as their spirit on the inside. Some humans on earth who would try to save others from starvation and tried to teach life survival skills. Some people would do this in the name of their churches religious beliefs. Others worked to assist and were considered humanitarians.

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