I tried to make my normal guttural screaming sounds, but was unable to do so.

And suddenly I sat straight up in bed, breaking free of the effect of being paralyzed and sedated. After suddenly sitting up, I quickly looked around the room for any hint of the aliens, but as always, I never see them.

I had learned some weeks back about one ability the Grey's have; that of changing from 'now you see me' & 'now you don't'. Damn that is so cool, I wish I could do that.

Then again, are the aliens really appearing and disappearing or is it my mind that is being controlled by the Grey's? Perhaps the aliens use my mind against me and either allow me to see them or allow me to think they are invisible.

Once again the little Grey aliens failed in their abduction attempt.

Why can't I have a normal life?

Why can't I sleep without being interrupted by aliens I keep asking myself?

I want to sleep and get up in the morning and never have to worry about aliens or keeping notes about abductions and aliens. Becoming aware on December 21, 2007 was initially an exciting event, but had very quickly turned my life into a depressing situation.

On Saturday night, April 12, at approximately 9:25pm I was fast asleep and I suddenly felt the all too familiar 'paralyzed' feeling setting in, and immediately started making as loud a guttural sound as I could and it worked. The aliens immediately broke off the abduction once I recognized their attempt to paralyze me.

I awoke and quickly looked around for the aliens. As always I could not detect them, but it's difficult to see an alien when they are invisible. I generally cannot detect them unless they move, then I see a quick movement out of the corner of my eye. All I usually see is a darkish cloud type figure, and I can only see this when the alien moves. If the Grey's stand completely still I can't see them.

Moving ahead to Sunday April 13, approximately 9:40pm, and again I was asleep and felt my body becoming paralyzed. I again started making the usual guttural noises and again it drove the aliens off, which brings me to a most puzzling question.

Why do they bother trying to abduct me when they are setup to fail? The aliens/hybrids who are making these attempts must be amateurs at abductions. And it makes sense that even aliens learning how to abduct humans have to start at the bottom and learn by experience. Is this what is happening to me I wondered? Are the Grey's using me to train other aliens or hybrids how to interact and abduct humans? Interesting question and I can believe this. One of my contacts I correspond with reports the same thing, and he also has the same opinion of these failed abductions.

I've been thinking about the process the Grey's use to determine if the human is ready to 'knock out', paralyze and prepare for transport.

We know they can easily read our minds and know how to interpret our brain waves. This process is something a human will never fully understand, and the Grey's will never allow us to know.

These Grey aliens are very adapt at knowing the human brain, how it works and how to control us by using our brain against us. I have no idea how long this alien species has been studying humans, but if must be many hundreds of years, if not many thousands of years.

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