I was right to feel afraid. What happened later was deeply traumatizing to me and the implications that it could happen in the United States of America were even more deeply disturbing.

I was bussed from the radar site to a military medical dispensary-type of facility which I'm pretty sure was in the Area 51 complex. We were placed in a waiting room with the chairs placed diagonally in the room pointing from corner to corner, backs of the chairs towards a hallway behind with double doors, the only light in the room coming from that hallway beyond the double doors. There were likely about 12 to 15 of us sitting there waiting, silently as we were told to. One by one, we were called into a room to the side of the waiting room. When my name was called, I entered the room and was told to lay down, fully clothed, on a stainless steel examining table. There was a security guard with a side arm standing watch at parade rest in the room with a side arm. He stood near the foot of the table. After waiting for some length of time, more and more rigid with fear, a man entered the room through the door I entered through, walking past the security guard and up around to my right side, saying in a dead-pan voice, "Stay calm, stay calm, stay calm." When he was next to the right side of my head, his hand came up in one smooth move, as if done many times, a hypodermic needle syringe hidden in the sleeve of his lab coat, and I was injected with something in the right side of my neck that rushed straight to the brain.

I spontaneously came out of the hypnosis at that point, too terrified to see any more. I didn't want to believe what I had just experienced, but the terror I was feeling was huge, powerful and had its own truth to tell. I don't think I could feel so much terror and have it be for something that never happened. I also had a splitting headache that lasted for 3 days after the session.

This set me on a quest to find out what had happened to me and why and what was going on. I talked to many people, attended many lectures and groups, read a great deal of material. I found stories and testimonies that intersected with my own, affirming and confirming similar details. At one group I encountered someone who apparently had had the same thing happen to him. When I mentioned in very general terms that I had been out with a small crew testing the radar on extraterrestrial space craft in the middle of the night and then was taken to a medical facility and some kind of mind-wipe procedure done on me, he spoke up and asked, "Did they stick you in the side of the neck with a needle too?" I had not said so, but that was exactly what they had done. I became scared again and couldn't wait to get out of there. I was too afraid to talk to this man and never went back to that group. In the ensuing years, I wish I had talked to him, and at length.

The facade of the land of the free and the home of the brave I thought I lived in disintegrated. Suddenly I found that I really lived in a country where things could happen to a person outside any legal system or framework and with no recourse to pursue justice. There was a secret faction operating in secret within the government that had a blank check to do whatever they wanted to do. Where a person's memory could be tampered with, hiding the evidence of any crime from their own conscious mind. My subsequent searches through information on MK Ultra and Project Paperclip have shown me the means by which this type of thing might be done. I also found it interesting that there are CIA members serving on the board of an organization called the "False Memory Syndrome Foundation." Are so many people recalling memory tampering, abuse and trauma while under hypnosis that the CIA felt the need to step forward and find a way to discredit people like myself? Material recovered through hypnosis was once considered to be acceptable testimony in a court of law!

It took years for me to undergo more hypnosis, to find someone I trusted enough and to be willing to face what might come next, which I finally did in March 2003, to fill in more gaps (in my memory).

What came out was even more disturbing and terrifying. After the injection, I was dragged down what seemed like an abnormally long staircase through another door in the room. I was placed on the floor of a room with a one-way mirrored observation glass, mirrored of course on my side. Locked in there, I went through the effects of the injection, which was terrifying also. I can only describe feeling like I was coming apart at the molecular level. I don't remember pain, only the fear of dissolving away into nothing. After the effects of the injection were beginning to fade, I was dragged out of the room and raped by two security guards while eight other people watched, one of them a Grey extraterrestrial. I remember quite a bit of detail of this and can draw elements from these memories in detail.

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