This is all I'm going to recount here at this time, and it's enough. Even with all the processing and healing this has been hard to write, especially for publication. There is far more to my story, including abductions/contacts as a child and into young adulthood, predating my military enlistment. I still experience some kind of ongoing extraterrestrial contact today and I'm doing what I can to understand more about it.

I can tell you, every time I go public with any piece of my story, however small; I have to take a deep breath, move past a lump in my throat and a tension in my body, knowing that somewhere, there are those who do not want me to speak of this at all. The years of terror are behind me, and I think of myself as well healed today, and I'm an emerging speaker with other witnesses who believe with every fiber of our beings that this must be brought out fully into the public domain for a variety of reasons.

I added a blog to the IONS (Institute of Noetic Sciences) website on the topic of UFOs and extraterrestrials a while back and I'm glad to see the subject brought forward now, by Dr. Dean Radin in the most recent issue of IONS Shift magazine. I appreciate that he did not heap the usual denial and ridicule on it. That does a huge discredit to those of us whose lives have been impacted peripheral to this phenomenon, and I know my healing process was delayed for years because of it, fear of those humans enforcing secrecy by traumatic means on one side, fear of ridicule and being ostracized by my friends and family on the other. I can tell you I carried this around a long time before I reached out and got the help I needed to heal from what was essentially post-traumatic stress disorder. My PTSD was badly aggravated by living under the Bush-Cheney administration because, according to my own research trying to understand and put in some context what happened to me, I consider them to be the most public face of that shadowy faction within our government responsible for harming me and so many others. But that aggravated PTSD did force me to finally seek a gifted healer and put me in a position now to add my voice to all the others who are trying to get people to pay attention to the multi-layered issues surrounding the UFO enigma, not the least of which is for We The People to find a way to wrest the secrecy, control and technology from the clutching fingers of the military-industrial complex, a cadre of people drunk with the power the secrecy has given them and who have done unspeakable things to keep their secrets.

It's not all about dark government conspiracies and pain and suffering. As Robert Dean, another vocal witness who has often spoken and given his testimony of what he knows says, if these extraterrestrials were bent on destroying us and taking over our planet, they could have done so long ago with the incredibly advanced technology they possess. According to reports he was privy to, there is one group that looks exactly like us, and he feels that we have had an intimate relationship with this group. This information relates to some of the human genome project scientists, including Francis Crick, Nobel Prize winner for his pioneering research into human genetics, who concluded extraterrestrial origins in human DNA, for we humans possess 223 extra genes that did not evolve or recombine through evolutionary process, they were inserted into our gene pool at a more recent stage of human development. These non-coding sequences of DNA, previously called "junk" DNA, contain information still to come online for humanity. I consider this very inspirational and exciting news for the expansion of consciousness and more evolved spiritual or psychic abilities for humanity. Robert Dean also says he feels we will meet this group of extraterrestrials in the near future and the people are not ready. I concur with both points, and I'm doing all I can to educate and inform so that people can meet this eventuality with wonder and inspiration, not fear. To explore the extraterrestrial phenomenon deeply is to also plumb the depths of human spirituality and consciousness and there is not time to express all of that here. As Dr. Fred Alan Wolf of the film, "What the Bleep Do We Know?" discovered, (also see his earlier book, "The Eagle's Quest") the exploration of consciousness, by its very nature must be experiential, and cannot be fully approached only in empirical ways and studies.

I find that if one pushes hard enough on people's denial and ridicule on this subject what is revealed is their own fear of the unknown. How many times do we find people joking and ridiculing something that deep down, they fear? What if something really is out there and powerful enough to travel at the speed of thought through time and space and even other dimensions? Shouldn't we fear it? We have a known history on our planet of the strong preying on the weak, and conquering or killing less advanced peoples, less technologically developed cultures. This is not so however with the inter-dimensional extraterrestrials. For a culture such as theirs to achieve what they have, they must recognize the oneness and sacredness of all life - and that statement contains yet another whole essay in itself to demonstrate that point. Facing fears and moving through them to the other side is part of the spiritual process, not burying them and refusing to confront them. That just leaves them lurking under the surface to spring forth and paralyzes us when a catalyzing event occurs. I know this better than most!

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